So a little bit of new endings of old beginnings.

So, sad news today. My sister and law and my older brother broke up. I don't really know how I feel bout it, though.. because she and I haven't always gotten along. I really hope that she is happy in the end. But truthfully, my brother comes first and I've seen him suffer through things that I don't think she ever noticed... it hurts, but I know he will be alright. He's strong like that. I long to be like that one day.

Jimmy messaged me on facebook around 8, and told me that he had a hold up with his internet set up or something like that and that we wouldn't be able to hang today. It was just nice talking to him. But, we talked about what would upset us, make us want to end it...etc. He's the type of guy to completely ignore you if you break up with him. Idk. I don't really believe in that -- simply because if you like someone enough to date them, then there should be a reason for you to be friends in the long run if things don't work out in the romantic field. Right? I mean, I could be wrong....hell, I probably am--but, that's just how I believe, you know?

Oh, man. I am sooo sleep deprived it's not funny. I haven't gotten 8 hours of sleep in one night for the past two months. If anything, I've only had 5 tops. It's really stressful and I got a nap in earlier today. It was only for like thirty minutes but it felt freaking great. :)

Jimmy is working tomorrow but we're going to TRY and hang out afterwards. Mom is going to hang out at her friend, Terry's, house tomorrow at noon, and Cameron is going to work with Daddy....so, I will be alone. Either I will sleep, or blog and watch TrueBlood all day. Probably the latter...

But right now, I'm going to go. :)

Love the lovelies,
Carpe Diem.

awaiting the distance

Well I had an interesting day today. Jimmy wwas supposed to come over for another game day. He hasnt shown up. I wouldnt say that I am upset just a little bummed. I just wanted to see him is all. Well anywho.... II've been playing dcuo for the past three days and i finallyy got to level fifteen. its super fun!!!

Kindle again, my apologies.
Carpe Diem.

le heart....

So,… it is really late. er... really early--whichever you choose my lovely friends. I have been thinking a lot lately. What about? Well... a lot of things are in my head and I like to pride myself on going over every single thought individually. Do I always? I dont have time nor do I have the means to do it. Gosh.... what am I talking about?? I started this blog so that I could tell you, someone who probably couldn't care less, about who this girl is on every level. The level I am on right now surpasses all of the others that I have been on in the past year... Why? Well… it is only because I think I have finally found someone that I dont have to change for. We may not work, but I dont have to constantly walk on egg shells with Jimmy. I'll admit, I dont know him as well as I have known the last three people I have been with, but I think that that is why it is so interesting with him. Jimmy is almost twenty, like me and that is not the only thing I find we have in common either. I slightly upset him with my cursing (I cuss a lot) duing our game day. I explained that I dont do it to offend, and that to me, those are just words.. The reason I brought that up, is because I really felt like I upset him.. and I didnt like it. Normally, I would tell someone to "Get Fucked" if they didnt like the way that I spoke. He told me that he wants to be a closed off for a while because of some issue he has with physical contact. So basically he read my mind.. he says he wants to see how serious I am. I just think that its hilarious in a very indirect way how I can go four years in a long distance relationship (not to mention three very long long distance relationships) and never  ask for anything and somehow I am the one who gets questionef...no, challenged about my seriousnes. Maybe I dont need a serious relationship yet... my soul tells me to rest, but I've always been one to listen to my mind over my inner conscience. I guess the thing is... I want a relationship towork.. or at least not end in hatred.

Well, Jimmy is coming over tomorrow... er... today. Im going to sleep. ;) Good Morrow Lovelies.
Carpe Noctem.

Today was a good day.

A little bit has happened since my last post.. I broke it off with Kati  I did it as gently as I could, but the truth is that I didnt feel as strongly strongly toward her as she felt toward me. She was nothing but good to me so I tried to be kind. That was about three or four days ago..In the mean time I have grown closer to a boy I barely knew two years ago. He graduated a year bfore I did. His name is Jimmy. He is only a month younger than me or so and he lives here! He took me out on an official date yesterday and we went to see Prometheus. The movie was great snd we difnt get home until 12:00. I had had a great time and then he asked me if I wanted to make our relationship official. So I have a new boyfriend.

I really like him so I hope to tell you all about him. Today waswas  a good day. He came over and we uung out for nine hours plying DC Universe all day.

I have t  apologize for typos...Im tping this from mykindle aandits very very slow.